Contradictions

I'm outspoken... don't keep my opinions to myself, and probably most don't care what my opinions are. Knowing that does not stop me. I'm stubborn, emotional and intelligent, which sometimes makes for explosive, complicated arguments/conflicts. I wear my heart on my sleeve, which sometimes hurts those I love, especially when I choose to express disapproval. I am co-dependent and non trusting.

I am colorful. I am open. I am nurturing. I feel what others feel. I FEEL. My heart seems to have no bottom - it is deep.

I love to people watch and I love black licorice.

:)

Midlife Crisis Bullshit That Splashed On Me

Vent -> I am angry and hating the place that a loved one is currently in - that immature, selfish, mid-life crisis place where one hurts others obliviously and desperately - making only selfish, reckless decisions while remaining seemingly unconscious of such selfishness, and the effects of any hurt on others. I watch children witnessing petty venting (such as liking FB pages which validate breakup hell - you know: "likes wondering whether I was drunk during the entire relationship with my ex")... how can one NOT realize that their 13 year old - the child of a soon to be ex, the child who LOVES a soon to be ex, has the ability to read such a like?! I am angry that have sadly come to the realization that I've lost HUGE respect for this person - a person who I have respected above most others, for most of my life. Now I am being selfish - yes, how dare this person make such reckless, foolish choices that put me in the uncomfortable position of either following my gut and being true to my feelings by acknowledging my lost respect and behaving consistent with that, or choosing to ignore this lack of respect by pretending that nothing is wrong. I am MAD!! OY!! Its not my business, nor my life, and I hate judgemental people. I'm mad that I'm in this place where _I_ am feeling judgemental.

This sucks.

hmmm.... this is a new, quiet, scarey place! :) We'll see....